给《克传》也开一个吧。
胡译克传里有两处“安住于觉性”,胡氏译文和原文分别如下:
“只要专注于一个焦点,中心就存在。外围一旦动摇,中心就形成了。自我中心奠基于外围上的点,这些外围上的点包括一个人的名誉、财产、妻子与声望等。这些点不断地被加强。这些外围的点上一直有活动在进行,自我经常害怕这些点会被破坏。”
“没有这些中心点,我能不能活下去?”罗问道。
“如果我从中心开始研究,我得先知道中心到底在哪里。其实根本没有一个自我中心,存在的只有觉性罢了。意识的外围制造出了一个中心,因为有外围,我才知道有个中心的存在。外围就是专注的焦点,自我中心就是由这些局限制造的。外围一旦去除,哪里还有中心呢?”
“我们有能力去除外围吗?”我质疑。
“如果你的心能在觉性中活动而没有自我感,你就不会有记忆。你一旦朝向外围活动,记忆就开始了。
“到目前为止我们的思考都是从外向内的。没有自我感的思考一定是截然不同的。我们必须习惯从内向外的思考方式。”
“那些焦点怎么办?”我问道。
“就像从篱笆的下面溜过去一样,篱笆的本身已经无关紧要了。观察这些外围上的点必须视若无睹。我们却总是立刻跳到外围,陷入自我的习性中。我们无法形成没有自我感的习性。
“从外围朝向中心的活动往往使我们陷在自我感中。我们一旦发现自己正在全神贯注,全神贯注就变成了缩小的焦点。惯性思考都是外围的活动,其实根本没有一个可以被认得出的焦点。自我感往往和这些焦点有关,从外向内的活动制造了这种自我感。
“我愈是能安住于觉性中,愈是能认清没有自我的事实。”
第二天早上我们仍然继续讨论。我们问克里希那吉:“意识的外围到底是什么?它是怎么形成的?那些篱笆是如何造成的?它们的材质是否有别于那没有焦点的中心?”
“你们为什么要停留于外围?你们为什么不能安住于觉性,去发现它的芬芳?你们为什么只关心外围的篱笆?”他回答我们。
“The center is only when there is focusing of attention. The center is formed when periphery is agitated. The center is formed as a point on the periphery. These peripheral points are one’s name, one’s property, one’s wife, fame. These points are constantly being strengthened. There is movement all the time at the peripheral points. There is a constant fear of the breaking of these points.”
“Can I live without the formation of centers?” asked Rao.
“If I start from the center, to investigate, where is the center from which to start? There is no center, but only the field. Except for the periphery there is no center. The fences to the field create the center. I only know the center because of the fence, the periphery. The fences are the points of attention, the limits that create the center. Remove these fences. Where is the center?”
“Can one remove the fences?” I queried.
“If you move in the field, in the non-center, there is no memory. See what happens as you move from field towards fence. As you approach the fence, memory begins.
“So far we have been thinking from the periphery to the center. The thinking from this (non-center) must be totally different. I have to get used to the movement from within towards the periphery.”
“What happens to the points?” I asked.
“It is like slipping under and through fences. The fences no longer matter. To see the point at the periphery is to see no point at all. What we do, however, is to jump immediately into the periphery, into the habitual. I cannot form a habit of that which has no center.
“To go from the periphery to the center is to stick in the center. When attention becomes identified it becomes the point. Thinking in habit is the movement of the periphery. There is no point from which I can recognize point. To know the center it must be related to point. I can only know it if I approach it from the periphery.
“The more I stay in the field, I see there is no center.”
The next morning the discussion continued. We asked Krishnaji, “What is the periphery? How is it formed? How are fences made? Are they different material from the pointless center?”
“Why do you stay at periphery? Why cannot you stay in the field, seeing its flora and fauna, its perfume? Why are you concerned with the fence?” he responded. |