信心

Sue

When I know that I can have that capacity, then the problem ceases to be. But because I have not the capacity, I want to be shown. So I create the Master, the guru, the Saviour, someone who is going to save me, who is going to help me. So I become dependent on them. Whereas if I can have that capacity of resolving, understanding, the question, then it is very simple, then I am no longer dependent. This does not mean I am full of self-confidence. The confidence which comes into being through the self, the `me', does not lead anywhere; because that confidence is self-enclosing. But the very question `Can I have the capacity to discover reality?' gives one an extraordinary insight and strength. The question is: not that I have capacity - I have not the capacity - but `can I have it'? Then I shall know how to open the door which the mind is everlastingly closing, by its own doubts, by its own anxieties, fears, by its experiences, knowledge.
     So when the whole process is seen, the capacity is there. But that capacity is not to be found through any particular pattern of action. I cannot comprehend the whole through the particular. Through a particular analysis of a special problem I shall not comprehend the whole. So, can I have the capacity to see the whole, not to understand one particular incident, one particular happening, but to see the whole total process of my life, with its sorrows, pains, joys, the everlasting search for comfort? If I can put that question in earnestness, then the capacity is there.
     And with that capacity I can deal with all the problems that arise. There will always be problems, always incidents, reactions; that is life. Because I do not know how to deal with them, I go to others to find out, to ask for the way to deal with it. But when I put the question `Can I have the capacity?', it is already the beginning of that confidence which is not the confidence of the `me', of the self, not the confidence which comes into being through accumulation, but that confidence which is renewing itself constantly, not through any particular experience or any incident, but which comes through understanding, through freedom, so that the mind can find that which is real.

      当我知道我有能力的时候，问题就消失了。但是因为我没有能力，我就想要得到指点。所以我创造了主，创造了上师，创造了救世主，创造可以拯救、可以帮助我的人。所以我变得依赖他们。然而如果我有解决问题、了解问题的能力，那么那就是非常简单的，而我也不再依赖。
　　这并不意味着我充满着自信。来自自己——“我”的信心，不会通往任何地方，因为那样的信心是自我封闭的。但是正是这个问题——我有能力发现真相吗——给了一个人特别的顿悟和力量。问题不是我有没有能力——而是我能有吗?然后我将知道如何打开心门，它一直被自己的怀疑、焦虑、恐惧、经验和知识封闭了。
　　所以当全部过程被了解的时候，能力就在那里。但是通过任何特定模式的动作，是无法找到那种能力的，我不能通过个例而来了解整体。经由针对特定问题的分析，我无法了解全部的情形。所以我有能力看到整体的状况吗——不是了解一个特定的事件，一件特别的事情——而是看到生活中的所有过程，它的哀伤，它的痛苦，它的欢喜，它永远追寻安慰的心理?如果我能认真地问自己那个问题，那么能力就在那里。
　　有了那种能力，我能处理所有的问题。生活中总是有各种问题，总是发生一些事，有各种反应，这就是生活。因为我不知道如何处理这些问题，所以我就去找别人帮忙，向他们请教处理问题的方法。但是当我问自己这个问题：我能有这种能力了吗?这时候，就已经是信心的开始，不是“我”的信心，自己的信心，不是借着累积产生的信心，而是每天反省自身的信心，不是通过任何的特别经验或任何事情，而是经过了解，通过自由，所以心才能发现什么是真实的。

（上述译文未经修整）

Sue

楼上有几段校对译文。

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每天反省自身的信心？

李瑞

早上读一下这些让人有说不出的特别感受。

Sue

相关的另一段：

“如果我们抛开变化这个词，抛开革命或者转变——抛开所有这些词汇，那么，我们就会直面事物的真相，而不是面对事物应该是的样子。我生气了，这是真相。我很暴力，这是真相。在政治上或者宗教上变得非暴力是一个变化。从现在是暴力的我，变成非暴力的过程需要时间，在这个时间间隔里面，我就播种了暴力的种子。所以我保持暴力的状态，我并不试图去改变它。我生气了，这是一个事实。生气没有借口，但是我可以为生气找到一大堆借口，为仇恨找到一大堆借口。探寻我为什么生气也是一种逃避生气的方法，因为我的注意力移动到别处去了。所以，只有我们的头脑可以保持直面真相的时候，我们才可以真正看到正在发生的事情。
“我嫉妒你，因为你看起来更漂亮、更聪明、更有品位，你有一个更好的头脑，所以我嫉妒你。从这个嫉妒里面生长出来了仇恨。嫉妒是仇恨的一部分，嫉妒是比较的一部分。我想要像你一样，但是我不能够像你一样。所以我就敌视你，我想对你使用暴力。现在，我保持直面真相。就是说，我看到我的嫉妒。它就在那里，我嫉妒。这个嫉妒和我不是分离的，嫉妒就是我。所以我无法对嫉妒做任何事情。我就只能够握住它，与它和平共处。你会与你的嫉妒和平共处吗？不是逃避它，不是寻找借口，不是寻找原因，不是试图超越它？我就是嫉妒。让我们看看发生了什么。首先，这里显然没有冲突。如果我嫉妒，我就是嫉妒。只有当我不想要嫉妒的时候才会出现冲突。我不知道你跟上了没有。
“如果我与嫉妒和平共处，我就有了巨大的能量。能量就像探照灯一样，聚集地照射在某件事情上，这个聚焦的中心就会变得非常清晰明澈。当它清晰明澈的时候，你就不再恐惧或者被它所困扰。就是这样。你明白了吗？我希望你明白了。”

Sue

"But the very question `Can I have the capacity to discover reality?' gives one an extraordinary insight and strength. The question is: not that I have capacity - I have not the capacity - but `can I have it'? Then I shall know how to open the door which the mind is everlastingly closing, by its own doubts, by its own anxieties, fears, by its experiences, knowledge. "

正是这个问题：‘我能拥有发现真相的能力吗？’，可以给你特别的洞察力和力量。问题在于：不是我有没有这个能力，而是‘我能有吗？’那么我就会知道怎么打开那扇门，而心智一直用它自身的疑问、焦虑、恐惧和经验在关闭这扇门。

Sue

“not the confidence which comes into being through accumulation, but that confidence which is renewing itself constantly, not through any particular experience or any incident, but which comes through understanding, through freedom, so that the mind can find that which is real.”

不是通过累积产生的信心，而是自身不断更新的信心，不是通过任何特别的经验或事件，而是通过了解，通过自由不断更新的信心，这样心灵才能发现什么是真实。